How I Experience Anxiety

How I Experience Anxiety

I read an article recently about the different ways we all experience anxiety. I guess it makes total sense, but it never really registered with me that we all have different triggers and different experiences with anxiety. In the spirit of being open and honest about my mental health struggles, I thought I’d share some of my anxieties with you guys. I hope this post helps you feel a little less alone in dealing with your mental health, and that it inspires you to be more open about the ways in which you struggle. We’re all human, after all. 

Some things that give me anxiety are…

CAR CRASHES & EXPLOSIONS

I’ve somehow become the worst passenger ever. If I’m not in direct control of the car, I’m always anxious and worrying that we’ll get in a car accident at any moment. I’m also terrified that the car we’re travelling in will somehow explode, and I listen for any tell-tale signs {like ticking and rumbling} every second of any car trip. 

INTRUDERS

I spend hours laying awake at night, waiting for intruders to break in to my home. I’m not even scared of anything being stolen either, more so that the intruders will come in and attack myself or my boyfriend, or, god forbid, try to hurt my cats. It’s like being scared of the dark, times a million. Any small neighbourhood noises have me up checking the locks and window fastenings over and over again, which is probably why I get less than four hours of sleep every night.

SHARKS

Possibly my most irrational fear of all, but it’s natural when you’re a worrier and live by the ocean. I used to swim almost every day and now I get in the ocean about five times a year. 

LOOKING STUPID / EMBARRASSING MYSELF

I’m sure this is something that makes a lot of people anxious, but I think my worries take it to the level of stupidity. If I’m running 5 minutes late for class, I just turn around and go home, because walking into a full classroom and interrupting my teacher is way more humiliating than being behind on coursework. This carries over to public speaking and even public eating, too. I just don’t really engage in either, as I’m worried that I’ll embarrass myself somehow. Don’t even get me started on tripping over in public. It’s happened a few times in the last year or so and it gives me an instant migraine from the immediate amount of stress it places on my brain. I also stopped drinking alcohol to excess about four years ago because it made me panicky and stressed. I don’t like the feeling of being out of control in the slightest, and I’ve definitely had a few drunken panic attacks in my lifetime. Partying just isn’t worth it to me anymore.

FIRE / APPLIANCES BLOWING UP

The sound of a smoke alarm makes my shoulders tense up and blenders give me headaches. I had a juicing appliance malfunction and lunge blades-first at me years ago, and ever since then I’ve been terrified of my appliances malfunctioning. I can literally see and hear vividly what it would look like for my oven to explode, and I’ve run through what would happen if my toaster set fire at least a hundred times. 


There are definitely other anxieties that I experience, but I might leave those to discuss another day. Sharing this much is making me anxious, in itself, but I know that I find comfort in reading about how other people experience anxiety in their own way. It really does make me feel less alone, and less *crazy*, if you will. Have you ever experienced anxiety? Is it something you, too, deal with on a day-to-day basis? Feel free to open up in the comments below, or continue the conversation with me by emailing sharni@agirlandgrey.com. I’d love to hear from you, and your emails are always confidential! Take care of yourself x

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2 Comments

  1. October 31, 2018 / 11:17 am

    I always used to think to myself I don’t have anxiety because it would look like x,y,z but over the past couple of years I came to realise it feels different for everyone as no two people are the same. I still have a hard time accepting if what I have is actually anxiety or just paranoia and being super sensitive.

  2. November 5, 2018 / 12:16 am

    I feel you. I have had partly same kind of experiences but the older I come the less I worry. I think it’s something which belongs to youth life and if you just go and live your life, with in years you’ll get confidence and you stress less.

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